Turmoil

I am in emotional turmoil.  I feel lost and crazy.  I am going through something and he doesn't want to be supportive.  I know that I don't talk about my feelings much, but I need you to walk next to me.  You cannot expect me to talk about issues that I know you don't want to discuss.  You cannot control me.  I want to have your baby, but I am not willing to jeopardize my sanity and character.  I don't know what's going on inside; but I know that you are my husband, and you are supposed to be here for me.

It's Hard

It's hard to love or care about someone in secret.  It's hard to think about them and desire to be with them and not be able to.  It's hard when they entertain your thoughts on a regular basis.  It's hard to not know if the feelings are reciprocated...I miss you.  I miss your body next to mine.