L-o-S-t

Here I lay as a person dying.  I'm not, but that is the way that I feel.  Everything I love and cherish is in the room.  I'm frustrated that things are the way they are.  I'm angry that I'm not pregnant, even though I should be.  I'm in distress that my life feels useless.  I'm overwhelmed that I don't feel motivated to do anything but read or sit on the computer.  This isn't what I thought my life would be like.  I want to DO something.  I want to make a difference.  What the hell is going on?!?!