Infertility

I figured that I would have time constraints with conceiving another child because of the ages that my mother and her mother started menopause. My mom was 30, and my grandma was 29. Here I am at 27 and perimenopausal. I'm upset that I am having such a hard time conceiving. I am frustrated that my doctor will not do anything other than IVF. I hate my body and I'm having such a hard time accepting the diagnosis of premature ovarian failure. I hate that I can't talk about it with my husband because he doesn't understand. He has faith that we will conceive when the time is right. We conceived our daughter in about a year of unmonitored trying. Here we are over a year later with nothing. My cycles are longer or extremely short. I'm not ovulating regularly.

Today is a bad day. I'm scared that I would conceive this cycle and have a due date of July 5. I do not think that I could handle that. My life is still connected to hers! My husband doesn't really realize it, but I know that it would frustrate him.